snuff

ok, getting this off my chest. I will NOT be commemorating 9/11. I will not be watching any films or documentaries, or interviews or reconstructions. I won't read a book about it, or a newspaper piece. I refuse to listen to or read any phone messages recorded at that time. I absolutely will not have anything to do with any of it. It's NOT entertainment, it's ghoulish and voyeuristic snuff. Why in (insert deity of choice) name would anyone find this enjoyable? Watching people die horribly, and not being able to help, or stop it happening, or change anything? If I had lost anyone on that day, would I really want to watch up close and personal accounts of it? If I had been there witnessing it, would I want to live through it again and again? It was bad enough 'live' at the time, but what is this cult of emotional incontinence doing to us? A world wide sob fest of inane drivel, and a thousand conspiracy theories, a hundred post mortems on what went wrong, and how can we stop it ever happening again.... what 'good' will any of it do? Boost sales of tissues? drive someone vulnerable to murder/assassination/suicide? Is grief not allowed to be private and dignified any more? Is this era of 'LIVE!' horror and inhumane atrocity beamed into your living room as it happens making us all into Disaster Tourists? Too many questions, I know, sorry. It's just driving me a little bit nuts, and I know sooner or later I am going to have to vent.. so please, don't ask me what I will be doing, or what I will be watching on that day. I will be attempting to live a quiet life, and if I should choose to pause in my daily routine and think of all those lives so pointlessly lost, let me do it in my own private way.